4eva stuck

2008-06-05T19:50:00.001+08:00

to you, i have nothing more to say.

2008-05-21T08:39:00.002+08:00

Simple Plan - Save You

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning into whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do
I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
You know I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

2008-05-21T05:28:00.002+08:00

2008年05月12日，14:28。
一个很普通的日子，很普通的时间。
一个我们也许已遗忘的日子。

这个时候得你，在做些什么？
我？和平时一样，还在甜梦中。

2008年05月12日，14:28。
一个很普通的日子，很普通的时间。
世界的另一端，这一天却成了他人毕生难忘的日子。

上万户家庭，就在这个时候被毁灭。
家倒了，亲人死了，心痛了。

突如其来的地震。
是天灾？是人祸？
我想没人能答得出。

一条条失去了的生命，一条条捡回来的生命。
你学会了什么？
人总是要失去了才懂得珍惜？

一句你我他一定有看过，听过或说过的话。
怎么到现在还有人不明白这话的意思？

看着年幼的孩童因自己生存却同时间丧失了最爱的父母而哭泣。
我不禁落泪。
在场的大人们只能无助地对他们说：“勇敢地活下去”
在电脑前的我也只能捐出一点钱，希望有所帮助。
同样在电脑前的你不如问问自己。。。

我能做些什么？

2008-03-23T06:12:00.002+08:00

隔了一年，再次遇见你。

虽然大家外表看似没变，我们心里都知道‘一切都变了'.

我不知道下一次再遇见你是几时，也不知道还有没有机会再遇见你。

我知道你看不懂华语，也不知道我这个网站。

但，我想跟你说：

有人曾经说过：心是人类最大的敌人。

心里的折磨往往是人最难克服的。

突如其来的转变和他人给的眼光；你看在眼里，心却挣扎不少。

其实你好勇敢，能一个人去承担这件事。

你一定要知道，还有我们。也许我们帮不到多少；可是最基本的精神鼓励，我们是有的。

那天临走前，你小声地跟我说的那句话，我有听到。

在这，我‘无声’地传回你：我也爱你。

无论如何，请你继续加油。

是不容易，这个我知道。

2008-03-20T04:21:00.003+08:00

i was told a shocking news today.

from the bottom of my heart, i sincerely say this to you:

Dear God, don't take her away.

please.

God does hear our prayers, right?

2008-03-12T03:46:00.008+08:00

周杰伦 - 我不配

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及
仔仔细细
写下你的关于
描述我如何愛你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
在妥协
是我忽略
你不过要人陪

(哦) 这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅
的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪
多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪
你的美我不配

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及
仔仔细细
写下你的关于
描述我如何愛你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
在妥协
是我忽略
你不过要人陪

(哦) 这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅
的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪
多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪
你的美我不配

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
在妥协
是我忽略
你不过要人陪

HO 这感觉
已经不对
最后才了解
多憔悴而我心碎
你受罪你的美
我不配

2008-03-12T03:34:00.002+08:00

一个值得学习的优点：

对人对事，都应该将心比心；一颗真诚的心。

我希望你知道我在说你，也在提醒你。因为这是朋友应该做的事。

2008-03-07T04:14:00.001+08:00

to those out there who feels this way, you are not alone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Si7RE4JZk1s

2008-03-02T06:01:00.000+08:00

someday, i will go missing.

2008-02-03T04:02:00.000+08:00

i lost a friend some time back...

ok. i thought i did.

i found this friend recently. it turns out that all remains the same:

the things we used to do;

the places we used to go;

the jokes we made of each other;

and the decision we made - that we are important to each other.

yet, i lost another friend.

is it true that one can never have the 'best of both worlds'?

to my lost friend,

we have been searching for you. been giving you chances. why is it that you seem to be hiding away from us?

yes, our lives have been occupied with stuff. nonetheless, that is not a good reason for you to go missing.

is our friendship that shallow?

please, come back.

love,
your searching friend(s)

2007-12-09T03:58:00.000+08:00

人不可貌相？

不说在哪里，也不说她是谁。

只能‘卖个关子’：
１。我周一至五都会见到她
２。她虽有运动却又矮又肥
３。我没见过她同别人一起ｌｕｎｃｈ

最最最重要的是。。。
她不但有一张“欠扁”的脸，她对人也不诚心。

是个自私自利，只要自己好的人。

我想，她的丑是‘由心而发’的。

人真的不可貌相吗？

幸亏我身边的朋友都有张‘见得人’的脸。

哈哈。

2007-11-25T05:14:00.000+08:00

there is only one way how you might lose your love ones.

death.

2007-09-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

am i being sensitive or is it you who 'exerts' too much of your BAD BODY LANGUAGE?

whatever it is, i couldn't tolerate another minute with you.

body language does represent 60% of a person's true feelings.

2007-07-29T04:15:00.000+08:00

which is true?

to grow wiser as we age OR were wise when as babies?

i have always thought the former is correct; 总是会说-"都几岁了, 还不会想?" 却似乎忘了, 其实就因懂得'去想'所以才会把事情弄得很复杂.

aren't all things simple in the beginning? why do we have to complicate them?

as young adults or adults, we often place ourselves too high up. so much higher than what we actually are.

in fact, we are the true murderers of our lives.

each time my friends and i see a kid getting so happy over a (very simple) toy, our reactions are the same...

we (roll our eyes) and say - "kids".

but, what's wrong with them (kids)?

that's what all of us 'originated' from.

to talk about the silly things we did when young, we dare. to acknowledge the silly things other kids (now) are doing, we deny them.

now, who's the silly one?

to contradict ourselves and follow our 'beliefs'?

that's stupid.

在这还是想说一句话- "每一个人的心里面都住着一个小孩".

是真的.

那是因为我们都不想长大.

2007-07-01T03:32:00.000+08:00

we often say things change. but do they?

things happen and we loosely blame others for making (these bad) things happen.

i did some reflection myself. perhaps, i have changed.

just wanna leave a note to some of you.

if u are still very important to me: i love u all.

if u used to be important to me: i admit that i have a part in making these happened. but don't forget, u contributed too. come one day u realize u have lost a friend in me, i could only say 'i am sorry'. i guess our friendship is not that strong after all.

if u seem to be not important to me: i am also very confused. i wonder if this is what everyone else calls it to be. i am afraid to know the answer actually. furthermore, i do not know how u feel about it. let us just keep it simple. what is meant to be will be.

on a further note, i do miss u people. yes, people who are still important to me but seem to be not important to me.

u have my best wishes, people.

like what i always say; take care and stay happy!

p.s. despite the above 'sad' post, i am actually happy with my life. contented. no worries lah. =)

2007-06-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

there was this man.
he had money;
he had a wife - beautiful wife;
he had kids;
he had a career;
he had a house - a huge house;
he had all that a person can ever wish for.

it was not enough. to him.

one day, his 'little angel' appeared.
this 'little angel' promised to give him whatever he asks for.
because he had everything, this man asked for anything.
his 'little angel' did as promised and gave him...

nothing. on top of that, his 'little angel' took away all that this man had.

half a year later, this man is nobody.
again, his 'little angel' appeared.
this 'little angel' promises to give him whatever he asks for.
because he have nothing, this man asked for everything.
his 'little angel' did as promised and gave him...

all that he used to have.

another half a year later, this man has turned from nobody to somebody.
once again, his 'little angel' appeared.
this 'little angel' promises to give him whatever he asks for.
because he have everything, this man did not ask for anything.
instead, he thanked his 'little angel' for giving him...

all that a person can ever wish for.

what have i learnt?
to treasure all that i have now.
you think so? nah. i've learnt that long ago.
this time, i learnt to appreciate what i have.
what about you?

2007-05-14T03:13:00.000+08:00

ARGH!

i want to travel...AGAIN! lol.

but hor...

first:
no university = no future;

no future = no work;

no work = no money;

no money = no travel!

second:
got university = no work;

no work = no future;

no future = no life;

no life = no money;

no money = no travel!

SAME!

ARGH!

so, how huh?

CONTRADICTING LIFE!!!

2007-05-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

for the first time, i think my life is in a mess.

are dreams that hard to achieve?

i knew it was coming.

i was prepared for it. i thought.

still, i am affected by it.

i don't like this feeling at all.

my life is in deep shit.

2007-04-13T01:37:00.000+08:00

a note to one of u and a learning point for myself:

when asking help from others, never make it sound as if the other party owes u.

2007-03-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

i just found a new meaning in life.

my language structure.

that's all i'm saying.

2007-03-05T05:29:00.000+08:00

this is it.

i'm finally done with being a polytechnic student! people (good and bad) around me have been 'reminiscing' about their (again, good and bad) life they 'breezed through' in a blink of eye. not wanting to be 'left out', let me go along with the flow and do the same...

kicking off is Sem 1.1. peaceful, pure, innocent and harmless. made great friends in this class; with them still some of my very close friends. everything seemed so simple at that time. entered poly, made friends, attend ALL lectures and tutorials, did ALL tutorials, worked hard for projects and studied like nobody's business for exams. sounds boring? yeah. but i would love it if you agree it was SIMPLE.

life goes on, so here's Sem 1.2. CHILDISH. nothing much that i can recall of about this class. only one. the people in this class, i really wonder how did they manage to enter poly. did they leave their brains with their PRIMARY SCHOOL or anything along this line? my. CHILDISH. some of you may be wondering, what actually happened? well, if you peeps can remember those (long long long ago) days when you and another person of the opposite sex get kinda 'close' because you APPEAR TO BE STUCKED WITH EACH OTHER ALL THE TIME, and the people around you INSIST HE/SHE IS YOUR OTHER HALF...you would probably have understood what i am trying to get to. that was exactly what happened! everyday, EVERYDAY, they will ask if XXX is my boyfriend. everyday, EVERYDAY, i have to deal with these idiots' 'never-once-boring' question. alright, i know what you peeps are thinking of. everyday, EVERYDAY, my answer is a straight NO! definitely NOT!

finally, the GOOD deserves the GOOD! Sem 2.1. say CHOCOLATE, think CHOCOLATE, smell CHOCOLATE, taste CHOCOLATE, hear CHOCOLATE, feel CHOCOLATE. yes! CHOCOLATE! strangely but thankfully, two fantastic friends i made in this class were previously from the same class in Sem 1.1. i believe it's fate. to the two of you (read: you know who you are), WE ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER! haha. sounds kinda *ahem*. but, i love it that way. LOVE IT, LOVE THEM. fate brought us together, chocolate (note: because i am not a PAID SPOKESPERSON of the chocolate brand, i shall keep it CONFIDENTIAL) binded us. for the first time, i actually enjoy 'working overtime' (even though there was no extra pay)! you, you and you (again, you know who you are)! thanks for making it happen; to make it that fun and to help train me attain the best figure (due to all that laughing) i ever had YET. thanks, closies. i hereby crown Sem 2.1, "THE BEST OF MY POLY LIFE".

i was prepared to die for another class similar to the one i had in Sem 2.1. i mean, what best other way to end my poly years happily? as the saying goes, 风水轮流转. in English simply means the GOOD does not stay for GOOD. i would not even call it a class. i am about to prove to you why. warning: i was STUCK with 'THIS GROUP OF PEOPLE OR ANIMALS OR WHAT-SO-EVER THAT YOU WANT TO CALL IT' for THREE SEMESTERS! first, there are the BITCHES. second, there are the ANIMALS. third, there are the SINGLETON SKELETONS (just thought it ryhmes! haha).

BITCHES. do i need to explain further? the word has said it all!

ANIMALS. to name a few; somebody with an OUTSTANDING ASSET so so so look-alike of a PIG. another with a VOCAL LANGUAGE that could only be comparable with a DOG. some others with a SKILL that is most likely learnt from a SNAKE. trying hard to understand what i have said? curious to know who i am referring to? i am all ready to explain if you ask. HAHA!

SINGLETON SKELETONS. okay. here, i refer to human beings. they are people who are no different from you and me, but they are INTERESTINGLY 'anti-social' (as defined by many of us). how should i phrase my sentences? let's just say they prefer to LIVE IN THEIR OWN WORLD. yeah, i think that is the BEST explanation for their weird actions.

what makes me a PART OF THEM? by posting this entry, i am BITCHING about 'THIS GROUP OF PEOPLE OR ANIMALS OR WHAT-SO-EVER THAT YOU WANT TO CALL IT'. man 'originated' from ANIMALS. i enjoy sleeping so much like a PIG. i can bark like a DOG (both cute and fierce). a member of my family was born in the year of the SNAKE. i am a certified SINGLETON for having the 'single status'. i am, at the moment, dieting my way to a figure like a SKELETON.

this entry ends as how my poly life ended. DRAMATIC.

that's all, folks!

2007-01-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

i couldn't believe it was you.

i'm utterly disappointed in you.

what are you trying to prove?

i'm warning you: leave me alone.

2007-01-24T16:44:00.000+08:00

i received this and i think it's worth sharing...

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.

In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.

2007-01-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2007-01-22T02:44:00.000+08:00

there were 3...

1 seems to be escaping,

1 trying to push another 1 in,

1 stuck in between,

another 1 trying to enter.

there are 3...

1 escaped,

1 wanting to escape,

1 succeeds in pushing another 1 in,

another 1 enters.

the future 3...

1 escapes,

1 remains,

another 1 stays.

2 is still a better number. congratulations.

life - full of people or full of tricks?

2007-01-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

umm,

i've been thinking.

are the people around me changing so quickly that i kind of dont know them anymore?

or

am i still stuck in my own life and so, i'm unable to catch up?

umm.

anyway, as the saying goes - 'the only thing constant is change'.

how true.

2006-10-01T08:23:00.000+08:00

so...

projects done.
exams over.
results finalized.
holidays enjoyed.

umm...

wat do i do now?
u may ask.

well...

attachment?

eh...

BINGO!

haha.

in fact, i'm enjoying my attachment.

no complaints.

-end-

2006-06-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

heh,

me frens have been asking me to blog something. think n think, like nothing much. so, i finally thought of something to complain about the way i live my life now...

honest, i dunno why am i so STRESSED over projects now. sucks lor. everyday no matter how much 'fun' i have, the word PROJECTS can just kill me!!! ARGH!!! so damn irritating.

felicia said last friday when we met for swimming, "now hor, i am so afraid of receiving smses. it will only be for projects!"

EXACTLY! now my life hor, no more fun. only projects...projects...PROJECTS!!! idiot. after bout 2 and a little more years at TP, i can only conclude that TP sucks! haha.

but den hor, TP also not really that bad lah. at least i made great friends - FROM PREVIOUS CLASSES! nope, not trying to shoot at 1 particular class, though i do make some marvellous friends from that class. at the end of the day, can only say that THAT PARTICULAR CLASS is HORRIBLE! i hate that class. HATE.

woah! didn't expect me to be able to come up with so much crap. haha. anyway, if any of you not pleased with what i post. then too bad so sad lor. before saying anything, ask yourself - this blog belongs to who?! yeah, stumped right?

not crapping anymore. back to my life, the thing that i am still stuck with - PROJECTS! this will be over soon. it must be!!!

2006-06-07T03:42:00.000+08:00

heh peeps!

finally my blog is kicking up and alive. have fun reading ya!

oh ya, must say before i post anything:

my blog 只属个人意见，my blog 不代表他人立场。

haha!